My Feelings Today

I feel terrible. I couldn't sleep and I had this strange dream that everything around me was dark. It was really dark, lifeless and just a scary thought. It made me feel like I don't want to wake up.

Made worse is that yesterday, my channel was attacked... again after two months, almost. Only 5 videos were affected so I ain't worried. The problem was that the one who did it bragged about it on Twitter and it made me feel sick. Really sick.

This alone just basically killed whatever motivation I had for doing anything. Now I just want to sleep and never wake up. I'm sorry but yeah... I'm in depression again. I tried not to worry about it but eventually it grew until it got really problematic.

If you want to talk to me about it, be my guest.